i dont exactly kno where i left off..oh alrite..friday night i went out to dinner at Red Lobster..yea too bad gaby doesnt eat seafood..that was rather humorous..i didnt even get a meal..i just pigged out on hot wings [which are the love of my life] and mozzarella sticks ...so i came home and my sister decides to take me to see the longest yard with my cuzin..the movie started at 10 25..so it sucked being up late and havng to wait online to get our tickets..then i get a text from matt asking to go to a yankees game the next day..lol that fell thru..

saturday..wait wat happened saturday? ooh yeaa..i went to pt pleasant then hit up seaside w/maria, ashley and jen..lol it was fun gettng hit on i guess..with the tatoo guy grabbing jens thong and some black guy walking up to me and telling me i was "looking sexy" lol haa ok then i wanted to get a lifeguard sweatshirt, so we walked into the store, and the guy who was putting the designs on kept flirting with me, like insanely..but whatever..we walk out nd my sisters like "gab u should've flirted more so we couldve gotten a discount" lol yea sry thats not bout to happen..then we left..and it took us an hr nd a half to get home..

sunday..tanned at my cuzins house..had some fun in the pool ..lol WARNING: trying to lay ontop of somebody whos on a raft when u have oil all over ur body is rather hard, do not attempt or drowning may occur..then..matt came over nd we headed down to keansburg..on which every ride i embarrassed my family..lol nd matt too..then we left keansburg nd went to my aunts house..to meet the rest of my family..yea haa..bad idea..they were all hammered and rather embarrassing..well matt had to meet the family he was marrying in to..lol yea my uncles threatened him a lil..but my aunts were definitely worse..lol but matt did well..and said some things that meant alot to me<33 thank you nd then we headed home..

yesterday...i tanned for 3 hrs..then for some odd reason i came inside and had so much energy..i made dinner..mashed potatoes [which are the best, by far..u have to taste them] and pork roast..it was good..thenn went out for ice cream and talked to matt ..nd headed off to bed

today..tanned for 4 hrs..got sun poisoning all over my chest nd stomach and talked to my best friend for a whillee and then talked to matt before he headed out to work again..i was bored so i treated my hair with emergency hair revitalizer..nd here i am..doing absolutely nothing with my life..lol

thanks for readinngggg ;)

well well well..i think we've all come to the conclusion of me being horrible at keeping up with this thing..which is why i dont keep a diary..lol annnyywayyss..i have no idea wat im gonna write about..waiitt..k 4th of july...mathew came over with his best friend..chilled at my house for hours..matt wen in the pool while i watched him swim..bbq, u kno..the whole 9 yards..and then we went back to his house to pick up fireworks..and listened to old school eminem..funny stuff man..picked up jay-son..lol and came back here..enjoyed matts "snakes"..wow that sounded dirty..let me rewind..matt had these little pellets that u light on fire..place them on the ground and the "turn into snakes"..ok it looked like a dog pile..lol it was sooo funnnnyy omg..lol then jay wanted food..so i jsut put a whole bunch of meat on a plate..next to some pasta salad not thinking he'd eat it all, but he did..he tried making me go in my house for some bbq sauce..but i wasnt about to.sry jayyyyyy haha..then  we took some pictures of his friend steve with him holding a smoke-bomb behind his butt so it looked like he was farting..hilariouss..lol then went to the little park..finally had some alone time..hmm like 5 minutes..lol and continued to do more fireworks..hmm well i guess theres these fireworks that have to have a specific tube in order for them to light up nd work properly..nd look pretty in the sky..k well we decided to use a pringles can..lol omg wow..we almost died..the firework was no lie 5 feet off the ground..lol it was soooo funny..lol haha then finished off the fireworks.aahh cant forget me nd jay writing notes to eachother in the street! gaby+jay=bffl!!! lol too funny man...then they went home..since then?..sam slept over nd we walked all over carteret to get tanning stuff then went to carmens..

yesterday my computer felt like being a douch-bag nd like crashed..ugh so i was on the fone with joe trying to fix everything [thank you soo much joe for everything u  put up it] and for those of u who dont kno me..im computer ILLITERATE..yea that was a journey..trying to get me to uninstall and reinstall junk..lol haha woww i hate computers..

today..woke up early..[8 am!] and went to the cancer center with mama to get her chemo..and now im here..being a lazy ass nd not doing anything..hope i didnt bore u with my adventurous life..lol k bye

p.s. maddd props to juan for the xanga pic! love yaa

wow soooo sorry guys..its been a month..a crazy one at that..so..last monday-wednesday i have no recollection of wat happened..lol those were the days i slept in til..wait noo..that was cheer camp..lol anyways..thursday matt picked me up and i dont remember wat we did exactly..hm..prolly mall..ahh idr..and then friday was ashlees sweet sixteen which was fun..then matt and i left at 11 30..and outta nowhere i started having heart poputations..why? yea idk..but matt and i thought i was dying of heart failure which was the scariest thought ever..so he just held me for a while and scared himself..so he eventually dropped me off and i went to bed at 1 30..haaaa not havng to kno i had to wake up at 9 30 the next morning..those of u who really kno me..u kno that i cannot function correctly unless i have atleast 12 hrs of sleep..and this time..i only had 8..haa..so matt came at 10 30 nd picked me up to help out at this weiner roast..lol it was soo cute to see all the rescued dashounds and chihuahuas! ahh loved them! then after that..i made matt walk into menlo mall with a shirt that said "Weiner Roast" on the front..lol haha we went to see The Perfect Man which was a really cute movie..surprisingly cuz i hate hilary duff with an utter most passion..lol then got dropped off and went to my aunts house..haa great talks w/my aunt nd uncle..lol finally came home at 12 30 and had to wake up yet again early to go to my girl jessica's graduation party..matt picked me up at 11:30..nd we were on the road til i realized we didnt have directions nd he swore he knew where he was going..so i made him stop back at my house nd i got directions..took us a good hr nd 15 minutes to get there..lol nd then ate, nd jumped in the pool had fun..tanned and had a great convo w/grylls..lol wow funny as hell..so then we departed from jessicas nd stopped to get some ice cream before arriving at la casa mia..lol so then matt nd i chilled here for a lil bit..he met some more of my family..played some soccer w/my pops nd cat's bf..nd then as i was walking him out..matt opened the door..i turned and ran into it..and ended up on the floor while matt nd brian [cats bf] were dying laughing..lol so then matt left nd i was stuck w/my family..watching my father nd my uncle louie pretend to do an indian dance around my fire pit..while "singing their native songs" ..it had to be one of the funniest and embarrassing things i've ever seen..lol then everyone left..nd i hit the sack..woke up yesterday afternoon at 2 and literally sat around ALL day...mathew called me at 730 and we got off the fone at 11 45..yea..spent 4 hrs nd 15 minutes talking to the love of my life..and finally went to sleep..woke up at 12 this afternoon and watched the view with mama..sat around nd 50 first dates came on..and we got midway thru and mama had a cardiologist appointment..so i went w/her and got complimented by her doctor and his nurses which felt good..i needed a lil self esteem boost..then came home nd talked to mathew about my future..and wat we have to look forward to..nd it feels good to hear ur boyfriend refer to it as "our house..and our family.." ahh stuff like that..its amazing when hes just as sure of wat he wants in the future as u are nd how u'd both do ANYTHING to stay together nd keep it that way..alright..im so done w/typing..lol

love youuusssss ;)

so its been 2 weeks..i apologize..gotta lot of stuff to tell u so be ready to read.. this week was hard..as hell..spent almost everyday with matt before he went to the dominican..and finally friday comes around..aka the last time i'd see him or hear from him in 8 days..i couldnt stop crying.me matt jess nd heff went to see the longest yard and afterwards got something to eat..i cudnt stop crying, it was terrible..so after matt shed a tear, he dropped me off and headed home..i came upstairs nd cried myself to sleep..so its around..10 30 and he calls me to say goodnight..and i was hysterical..like i dont remember the last time i cried that hard..it was soo hard to say goodbye..:'( im crying even thinking about it.. but then my sister calls me nd decides shes gonna take me out to eat..meanwhile its just turning 12 o'clock..so i stopped crying and went out to eat with maria, jeaninne, timmy,and ant..it was soo funn..then we left at 2:30 and got home around 3..i jumped in my bed and cried myself to sleep..

saturday- got up at 11 cuz i woke up to the thought of matt leaving..and i cudnt sleep anymore..i decided to watch tv and ended up falling asleep..cat wakes me up at 12 to go get our nails done by guys who cudnt stop staring at our boobs..lol then we were done by 1:30 and cat decided to call her boyfriend...infront of me..and i sat there teary eyed and tried to blow it off..then melissa came nd picked us up nd headed to woodbridge mall to get makeup..ahh the girls at MAC are amazing..lol so got new makeup and helped melissa with mascara and blush..moisturizer..the works..lol and then came home around 5 30..so then maria walks in and tells me we're goin to my aunts down the shore..so we get in the car and i started balling..i was soo depressed and God must friggin love me cuz EVERY love song came on as we were on our way there..which of course made me cry more..got to my aunts ..went to the mall..got some clothes and a purse for my prom dress and then came back nd watched meet the fockers..came home at 3 in the morning..

sunday- kept checking my fone to see if mathew called..he didnt..:'( soo depressing..then woke up to my mom screaming my name to get up..ate breakfast, went to church, came home and jumped in the shower..lol scrunched my hair nd headed to a college graduation party..stayed there for like 6 hrs..held the CUTEST lil boy ever..and met my cuzins italian fiance..no really..hes italian..he speaks noo english..lol it was funny trying to make him speak it..then my cuzin invited matt to her wedding..[with me of course] lol funny..then i kept getting hit on my my cuzins friends..ughh i cudnt take it anymore so i told my mom i wanted to leave..we came home..and here i am now..doing nothing..and on the verge of crying..:'(..6 more days........

lol sry for writing so much...have a good one

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wow..havent written in here in forever..i apologize to my faithful readers..lol so..thrusday was my sweet 16th birthday..and i thought everyone was gonna forget..but no1 did..ahh i was soo happy that entire day..cept one minor detail but o well..it happens..so all day i was walking around with my babydoll from kelsey! lol too cute and its funny..alot of guys wanted to hold it and nurture it..lol then after school im  walking around with a ton of presents nd balloons and i walk up to my car..and my sister pulls out this huge cooler..and the ice cream cake inside of it..and she lit the candles and sang happy birthday..ahh it was the greatest lil mini party ever..i then had to come home to get ready for the choir concert..of which matt COMPLETELY surprised me..lol i love you..but we did amazing.. i cudnt believe it..soloists..ya'll r amazingg

friday was funn too..lol jr/sr fair..haha with matt dave nd jessie..omg so much fun..jessie decided to pour cold water down my pants..lol then she made me a duct tape belt..lol she did a great job on it tho..so then..jessie nd i decided to fit her into the ball bag..lol so i got her in there and started rolling her around while a game of dodgeball was goin on..lol haha it was soo funny..i had fun messing w/dave, "hey dave..ball" lol funny stuff man..then i left nd went to the mall to get mathews gift..lol i got hungry..so i decided to get a caesar salad from the salad bistro..and i got hit on by a mexican..all he kept telling me was how beautiful i am..and i cant be mean to ppl i dont kno..so im just standing there half-smiling..half freaked out..so i just walked out..ok i lied..more like..RAN OUT..haha

saturday..omggg soo amazing...reggie picked me up and we headed to the menlo mall to eat at rainforest cafe..i love that place..lol i felt like a lil kid again..and matt nd reg had fun making fun of me lol and making me feel stupid..so randomly..reggie goes "hey look at the monkey" so i turned my head and was looking for like 5 minutes..and finally i gave up and turned around..kinda weird..then the waitor walks by reggie nd asks him a question..and i started getting suspicious nd ask him bout that nd he blew it off nd changed the subject..so we were done and out of nowhere..6 waitors come around me and started clapping nd singing to me..lol soo embarassing..but i had fun eating the brownie volcano..lol yumMy..so then reg had 2 leave to go to long island to see his aunt..so matt nd i went to see monster-in-law..it was humorous..then we walked out of the theatre and hes like "i got something for u"..and i cudnt guess wat it was..so he walked me to his car and had me wait 10 feet away..and he walks up to me with a dozen beautiful red roses..!! i almost cried ..then we went to the waterfront..which by the way, is soo romantic..then we headed home..mathew,-thank u for a beautiful night..

im outie..love yous